The Process

Right now I am sitting in my room (well, the room my parents have so graciously let me take over while I wait to move…and wait and wait and wait) surrounded by cuddly baby hats, measuring tape, pins and paper for marking sizes and categories, and of course a pile of skeins waiting to be paired up with their color partner and made into something that is hopefully going to bless someone else and aide in the upcoming photo shoot. These are the signs of the beginning of something, and I find it to be extraordinarily exciting.

I have a dream, albeit a little fuzzy yet, of selling the things I make only to turn the profit into making more things that can be used to bring life and hope to someone else. I’m not yet there, but this process of figuring out the exact sizes everything needs to be, and the right placement of buttons, and the most efficient method of making interchangeable bows and flowers  are all part of the process that will get me there – wherever there may be.

Growing up I always had an exact picture of what I wanted to be and where I wanted to go. That picture may have changed from time to time, but when I did have a picture, it was pretty specific. But, as I’ve watched God change the course of my life time and time again from where I thought we were going, and as He has taken me down paths more or less opaque than crystal clear, I’ve found that there is beauty in the process. For the first time, I find myself starting to jump in head first, because I feel God leading, but I don’t have an exact idea of where this is going to go. I have some thoughts, some inspiration, but I’m simply following, expectant of the wonderful outcome I cannot yet see. Honestly, it’s quite freeing, making my hats now and wrestling with my gauge, knowing that someday this is going to be something.

Perhaps this is a little cheesy, but the more I look at the process my hats and future 

business/ministry are, the more they remind me how much we are each a process, too. Every day we are being made into something beautiful, even though we may not see the end result. The longer I live and walk with God, the more He shows me that the process is exquisitely wonderful and part of His bigger plan.

Yarn waiting to be used. I have a few skeins.......

So, here’s to the process and the measuring and re-thinking and everything else that comes with it. ^_^