Right now I am sitting in my room (well, the room my
parents have so graciously let me take over while I wait to move…and wait and
wait and wait) surrounded by cuddly baby hats, measuring tape, pins and paper
for marking sizes and categories, and of course a pile of skeins waiting to be
paired up with their color partner and made into something that is hopefully
going to bless someone else and aide in the upcoming photo shoot. These are the
signs of the beginning of something, and I find it to be extraordinarily
exciting.
I have a dream, albeit a little fuzzy yet, of selling the
things I make only to turn the profit into making more things that can be used
to bring life and hope to someone else. I’m not yet there, but this process of
figuring out the exact sizes everything needs to be, and the right placement of
buttons, and the most efficient method of making interchangeable bows and
flowers are all part of the process that
will get me there – wherever there may be.
Growing up I always had an exact picture of what I wanted
to be and where I wanted to go. That picture may have changed from time to
time, but when I did have a picture, it was pretty specific. But, as I’ve
watched God change the course of my life time and time again from where I
thought we were going, and as He has taken me down paths more or less opaque
than crystal clear, I’ve found that there is beauty in the process. For the
first time, I find myself starting to jump in head first, because I feel God
leading, but I don’t have an exact idea of where this is going to go. I have
some thoughts, some inspiration, but I’m simply following, expectant of the
wonderful outcome I cannot yet see. Honestly, it’s quite freeing, making my
hats now and wrestling with my gauge, knowing that someday this is going to be
something.
Perhaps this is a little cheesy, but the more I look at
the process my hats and future
business/ministry are, the more they remind me
how much we are each a process, too. Every day we are being made into something
beautiful, even though we may not see the end result. The longer I live and
walk with God, the more He shows me that the process is exquisitely wonderful
and part of His bigger plan.
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| Yarn waiting to be used. I have a few skeins....... |
So, here’s to the process and the measuring and
re-thinking and everything else that comes with it. ^_^
